When did it become like this.

Making one of the biggest mistakes that will ever be made.

Last time that this will be done.

This soul has to be convinced.

So much pain can only account for so much.

Staying like this isn't an option.

It has to stop.

Swords through my back.

Tears on my face.

Enough is enough already.

Words pierce through my heart.

Teeth clenched on my tongue.

The taste of iron overpowers my mouth.

Enough is enough already.

It's time to end this personal strife.

I find it funny, and very sad.

I can spit out over 1000 words of crack drabble no problem, but when it comes to a 500 word essay

-durr-

Yeah XD

It's nearly 9pm here :D and I will have to get kicked off soon~ Teehee guess what ^_________^

I DIDN'T START TYPING OUT MY ESSAY WOOT WOOT HWAITING FTW FTW

Yeah that Iz for ya~

-goes back to reading fic and not doing essay-

Love ya na! <3

I just finished watching the first part of 2AM's Love Escort~

-sigh-

I really wanna finish the second part right now but I know I'll end up crying keke XD

and my friend is coming over and I doubt that she would want to watch it -_-'

Aigoo....I'm so hopeless XD

Heeeey anyone who's reading this!!! <3 how are you?

Aaaaaaaanyways

Woot woot for now school tomorrow!

Going with my friend to see Ninja Assassin XD I hope we can get in lmao

Just a random update~

Hope everyone's well!

See ya~

P.S: I posted up the forwards to one of the fanfictions I'm writing on inorae

Link: http://community.livejournal.com/inorae/119953.html#cutid1

Check it out if you want ^_^ and if you do, comments are appreiciated <3

I've seen way more cute infested and sexy pics but I felt like posting this one up XD

It looks like it has a "story to tell"



Junsu: Damn...
Jay: Oooh shit Taec, Junho and maknae are goners, where's Woo?....
Khun: Let's hide under this jacket and pray they don't see us...Shit they saw us

Very lame I know but it looks like they're trying to hide (and failing at it too I must say) from a bunch of rabid fangirls

I know the ringleader of them too hahaahahaahahha poor boys XD

fail post~

haha Rainism just came on~ <3

I be posting my works and writing here as soon as I get everything sorted out~ Just a heads up to whoever's interested haha~

Not dead atm....

Just very messed up

Love ya na~

Really gave me something to think about.

Lately there has been a lot going on because of the changes of 2PM's official page, with the beating heart with 2PM on it and especially because of the countdown timer on it. The countdown stops at 1:59 and the heart stops beating. Then a preview of 2PM's new song is played. The snippet went like this:

You'll get tired while waiting,
Do you know how I feel?
You'll get tired waiting,
Do you still remember me?
Credits to G-Race @ 2ONEDAY for the translation

Confession: This is terrifying me.

Here's how I looked at that home page. The heart symbolizes 2PM. The beating heart symbolizing the once thriving and 'living' 2PM. The countdown timer stops at 1:59pm and the heart stops beating.

It's like they're telling us "2PM will never be 2PM ever again and you guys will surely be tired of waiting"

They're not dead.

They're not dead.

They're not dead you know?

I really wish they would stop making it as if they're dead to us. They're not. Jay isn't dead, Taecyeon isn't dead, Chansung isn't dead, Wooyoung isn't dead, Junho isn't dead, Junsu isn't dead, Nichkhun isn't dead. (God forbid anything happens to them you know)

The song preview scared me even more because of it's lyrics. Kind of reminds me of Jay speaking through a song in a way.

Yes, we're tried of waiting (who wouldn't be look at how all the boys and HOTTEST efforts were treated)

But,

(speaking for myself)

When I said that "Jay I've got your back."

I meant "Jay I've got your back."

And that's going to stay that way. Whether he's in 2PM or not, he will still be a person worth my love and support.
 
This whole thing is so mentally antagonizing since we don't know at all what he thinks about it, what do all the other boys think about it and such.

Makes me feel incredibly more useless knowing that I can't even do much because of the fact that I'm on the other side of the globe and because of the fact that my words probably don't matter to them nor will they ever be known by them. I can't do much in my position because I don't have any authority and will that change? Who knows but probably not.

It hurts you know. No one is a toy and no one deserves to be treated as such.

Haven't posted in a while, sorry na (to anyone who pays attention keke)

So much crap happening lately -sigh-

I got a job, going to work soon. I hate my job I hate my job.

The customers are all fags for the most part, stupid pigs. Gonna stick with it until December then I'm going to look for another for all I care.

I'm not trying to be a picky bitch or anything but I think that my health and sanity are more important than $8.50 an hour at this stupid job.


I think this is it for this entry XD I was going to post something else along with it but it wouldn't fit properly XD

everyone take care na~

Hwaiting~ <3

Hey what's up to everyone? I hope that you're all doing well na~

Haven't posted here in two weeks but nothing much has happened I guess~

I got a job, flunked a French test (wah) and I'm trying to live life to the fullest while working for my dream~

I think I need a French tutor if I want to pass the class @_@ It's ridiculous...aaaaaanyways XD

Ah well XD

I took pictures! At school and one is the one I used for the International Love For Jay project on 2Oneday forums (http://www.2oneday.com/forum/index.php?)

Here goes nothing~

( Pics and nonsense )

Please

Please

Please

Please stop playing with us.

We've been hurt enough.

Please please please

We've played with enough.

We will always fight

We will always persevere.

But please don't play with us

We're not fools.

I've been following up with 2PM very closely and just like many others, I'm very hurt and stricken by the resigning of Park Jaebeom.

This is just a short entry. I have another entry that because I'm not quite finished with it and such, it's posted on private until I get to finish it.

I can't concentrate almost at all lately and hopefully I can get my thoughts together properly so I can post up the entry.

To the rest of Hottest~ I'm wishing you guys the best from the bottom of my heart, alone we probably won't have much of an impact but together we can do something serious~

Let's work hard to get Jay back

I really hope that we can get our messages across together~

We're all in pain right now and we'll make it through~

We have to stay strong for each other and for 2PM most of all.

2PM can't truly be 2PM without Jay. They must be going through a lot right now...

A few days ago they had their group leader, they were happily following their dreams and most of all

they had their friend and hyung by their side.

I really want to let them know, how much we love them.

And how much our love greatly out numbers the hate of the heartless netziens who attacked them so unmercioulously.

It truly breaks my heart to say that, overlooking the outcome of everything.

It made it seem like our love wasn't enough and that hate was stronger than love.

That isn't the case and we have to let that be known.

To 2PM and to the rest of Hottest~ <3 Stay strong we will make it through together~

All of you guys, take care of yourselves, we all need to stay healthy so we can make it through together~

Hwaiting!!!

Haha that title made it seem like I did something bad didn't I~

Bwahaahahahah......ha...ha....

I have to leave to go to school soon....for the half day @_@ maaaaaaaaan

It's only 8:18 there and by the time I get there it will be 9:30AM or something...

My orientation doesn't start until 1:00PM

@_______________@

Since I'm stuck going with my minor niner brother whose orientation starts at 10:00AM

Well I'm not the only one going that early XD Some of my other friends are stuck going that early because they have the same problem as I do~

Ah well I'm going to get off LJ now XD

...

I wanted to watch at least 1 part of My Name Is Kim Samsoon before the site kicks me off because of "peak hours" arg XD

Ja neee~

Edit: I'm dumb enough to post this before I fix the font 555+

It's 2AM and I can't sleep @________@

What also really sucks is that I have to wake up early tomorrow for an appoinment and a meeting with a friend that I haven't seen all summer...

Oh  yeah I would also have to wake up in 2 hours to eat too....Aaaaaaaaaah nani sore!!! @______________@

Hey maybe I should play some songs and have 2AM serenade me to sleep at 2AM

(like my pun there, I'm so cool lame more like it)